Tuesday, 15 February 2011

A message of hope

Some of my favourite people lately have been asking how I'm doing.  Some lovely women in my life suggested maybe we should plan a Red Tent day.  Apparently that's a girl day but with a twist.  You know I'm trying really hard to just move on.  I've read that formalizing a ceremony can help, but I'm not there yet.

Instead I'm applying this month to start my Master's in Education online through the University of Alberta.  That's huge for me because I've never wanted to keep going in my studies before and suddenly, as a teacher-librarian, I can't get enough and I want to read and research and write.  The program is unique in Canada as it has a teacher-librarian focus, and the advisors say on average it takes 4 years to complete.  I'd start in July this year.

I'm also going to audition next week for the first time in about 15 years.  The local community theatre group is doing "Mamma Mia" and I can't imagine a better time.  If you know Max, then you know that this was the first movie he memorized every word to, so it feels serendipitous that it should be the play they're doing this year.

Of course I'm terrified but I'm tired of being scared.  For the first time in a long time, I feel like I'm putting the me part of me first.  I want to just go for it.